It does not matter how slow you go, as long as you do not stop
This is not a bookish post, but I feel like sharing this to you today. I hope you will enjoy this post 🙂
I remember the first time I moved to Norway, which is in July 2015, I was very excited. Norway is really beautiful and the thought of living together with my husband for possibly a long time, is very comforting. It’s like a fresh start.
My life was even more fun because I applied for international master degree program here in Oslo. So, I got a chance to meet some new people. At that time, I was really enjoying uni because it seems like I love what I study. So, it is safe to say that everything was starting according to plan.
Until the beginning of 2016…
Second semester came and I started to feel scared. I cried a lot actually. I felt like not understanding anything. I felt like I was the most stupid person in class. It was so hard for me to follow my study. I even got two low grade on my exams. I was so embarrassed and felt like a loser. All I had in mind was to quit school.
Okay, here’s the thing. Academic English is heck difficult. If the teachers says some words that I did not understand, then I will ended up confused. Other thing is, the study system. Here, I was required to do a lot of reading. There are around five books to read for one subject, and worst I was not a reader at that time. I did not used to read this whole reading thing at all, so yeap…!
I remember telling my husband, and he told me “You know, if you think you want to quit school, you know, I support your decision. I just want you to be happy.”
So, approval from the husband, quitting school should be easy, right? NOPE.
I knew that deep down inside, I should not quit, and give myself more chance.
I should at least try to make it to the second semester’s exams and see how everything goes this semester.
I shouldn’t just give up right away.
So, after a long conversation with myself, I decided to give myself another chance.
and I am VERY glad I did.
Trust me, it is not as easy as it sound. The moment I decided to keep going, there were more tears coming. There were a lot of kneeling and praying. But HARD WORK PAYS OFF and GOD IS FAITHFUL!!
As a lot of you know, I just graduated last Friday 🙂
I reached the finish line, and feel so freaking proud of myself!
I am so grateful that I did not give up back then. I am grateful that those hard times really stretched me and made me grow. I am grateful that through this, I pushed my limit and prove myself wrong.
Here’s what I’ve learned…
- I’ve learned to not give up before trying. And even if I ended up failing, that’s okay too. Because life is like a wheel, sometimes we are on the top, and sometimes we are on the bottom. Bad days will pass and the sun will shine again. Everything is going to be okay.
- I’ve learned to talk to myself and give compliments to myself. Something like “Stefie, you wrote 2000 words today. You did a good job 🙂 You can do this Stefie. I love you”. Can I just say that’s the best communication that I’ve ever had? It so powerful and I really recommended you guys to do it, if you never try 🙂
- I’ve learned to not compare myself with others. Because everyone has a different journey. As long as I keep working on my field, the time will come where I will harvest my fruits.
- I’ve learned that there’s nothing you cannot do. Work hard, give your best and pray!
- I’ve also learned that when the other door closed for you, there will be another one open for you.
- Don’t limit yourself. Challenge yourself and you will be surprise of how much you can do.
Thank you for reading, friends.